Just in case you read this in the future.
I thank God every single day, for letting you enter my life. I have built strong concrete walls around me, which are almost-impossible to break through. I applaud your persistence and grit for being able to do that.
You are the one who I am looking for. After all that lonely solitude and journey of getting to know myself, I found you. You are my new home, my safe place, my comfort. At one point, I don’t think I deserve you and most of the times, I question God on why He is so kind to me. I am thankful.
Things unfolded so nicely and neatly that I found it’s so smooth. Our foundation is our friendship. We are friends, good friends. I like to see myself as an unsolved mystery but yet you know me so well that I know I can’t hide anything from your soul. I love learning things about you. You are like the world map with 7 continents that I would want to memorize by heart.
I never had a man who pampers me so much, in most sincere way I can compute and rationalize. You made me feel so lovable. You proved me wrong when it comes to the question of unlovable. There’s no such thing in your dictionary. You resemble my dad and I know you heard of it repeatedly from me. I can’t deny it. I told dad that “Abak, don’t worry. I will find someone who can get along with you one day. That’s my most important criteria”. Guess what, Pa, I think I found him.
I don’t know what the future holds. I decided not to think of any possibilities of losing you. I just want to enjoy the now-moment. The present moments of you and I – the times when we laughed and argued are my treasures that I safely keep. Most importantly, I adore you for being an adult, the pillar that I can lean on when things get tough and I just want someone who is matured enough to lead me. Someone who is worthy enough that I can respect without doubt.
I comfort myself that nothing good gets away.