Sad, despair, gloomy, weak – are the adjectives that can be used to describe a funeral. Death is somewhat a terrifying experience for anybody – as the first person who is experiencing it or the third person who is watching it. However, over time, as a keen observer, one will start to realise that death is actually a normal event of life. Death is actually a new beginning. Death is like a renewal of vow for a person – but it depends on your belief. My experience on death is relatively new. I think the most excruciating experience that I had with death was when my aunt died.
My aunt died because of cancer. She is the closest person to me and she took care of me when I was a kid. Basically, she spoilt me more than her daughter. Whenever I went back to my dad’s hometown, I slept at her place; and not at my grandparents. My uncle and my aunt will drive far to visit my siblings and I so that she can play with us. My siblings and I were well-loved by her. There is so much love in her that I only have happy memories of her.
When she passed away, I was 11 years old. I knew she was hospitalised because she was sick. But I was too young to understand what ‘cancer’ is. All I knew back then was, my aunt was sick, but she will get better soon.
Then, one night, my parents rushed to the hospital and left us siblings at home. I knew by then that something bad is going to happen. I waited all night in my room for my parents to come back. Then when it was almost midnight, my dad knocked on my door as my room light was on, he broke the news. My aunt has passed away. I cried myself to sleep. For an 11 years old, a death of the closest one is too much to bear.
That morning, as the family gathered for breakfast, my mom told us a story. As she was in the bathroom, getting ready to go to sleep after a long night, she felt like her back was touched by the soft wind. She said that it might be a sign of my aunt saying goodbye. I was not sure if my mom was trying to comfort us at that time, but if that is true, I wish my aunt a much-loved farewell.
She will always be in my memory. Full of love. Best aunt ever.